I'm Alive

"So damn easy to say that life's so hard 

Everybody's got their share of battle scars 

As for me, I'd like to thank my lucky stars that I'm alive and well... "

The past couple of weeks have been amazing for me...I have been able to put all my stress aside, be happy, and take it one step at a time :) For one, I had my IB art exam which went really well (I hope!). It was the day after I came back from my meditation retreat so I was extra relaxed and focused in what I was doing.   I was able to express my ideas in a clear way and I truly felt really confident about what I was doing. And now I'm onto the next exams...For the next two weeks I'll be studying studying studying and taking exams exams exams! But thats ok...because I'm SO CLOSE to being done that I just want to get them over with! I'm really happy about how calm I feel about this, and I think a big part of it is that I feel so much more confident in my knowledge and what I can do as a student and a person- and in the grand scheme of things, if I don't get a perfect score, who cares? 


I have also decided not to attend the once-upon-a-time school of my dreams (New College of Florida) and instead, attend the University of Virginia in the fall. As much as it hurts to leave that dream behind, I feel excited over what is coming next, and what great opportunities UVA can bring for me. On top of that, I won't be leaving college with a huggeee student loan to pay off which is also pretty good, and it will give me more options for my choice of graduate school :)
I guess I realized that my happiness will come where ever I take it- for some reason I had associated all my happiness with Florida that I didn't want to even CONSIDER anything else, but things just played out completely different than I had planned. I've realized that I can be just as happy in UVA as Florida, and I can be as successful there too! My happiness is INSIDE OF ME and it is completely separate from any place or school. 
And on the plus side I'll be only 2 hours away from my future niece!! 

"It'd be easy to add up all the pain 

and all the dreams you sat and watched go up in flames, dwell on the wreckage as it smolders in the rain--But not me...I'm alive...and today you know that's good enough for me"

(Kenny Chesney and Dave Matthews)