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I went to the John Mayer concert last night. Needless to say it was incredible. I absolutely love concerts. There is something about the sound and the gathering of so many people that is absolutely breathtaking. And there is this one huge thing in common—no matter how different you are, everyone is more or less there to for one reason: to hear and enjoy the music. I think sound is one of the most incredible things… and it can reveal so much. It’s an art all in itself. If you just listen to everything around, there is a constant sound that we many times ignore, but it’s always there, keeping us company and constantly surrounding us.

When I was in France last summer, we went to eat at a restaurant where everything is completely black and you can’t see anything. The experience is meant to make you see (or should I say feel?) the world in a different way, because once your sight is gone, all other senses become that much more enhanced. All of a sudden, you’re not only listening, but you’re almost seeing through your ears. When I was eating, I lost track of everything. Since I could not see anything I just listened, I stayed quiet and listened to everything. I became a bit desperate too- longing for my sight back, even so that I had to step out of the darkness and into the bathroom where I gathered myself once again. Before I used to think that if I had to choose between being deaf or blind, I would definitely pick deaf, but after that experience I was not so sure.

But back to the point: The feeling I get when I am involved in a piece of music, or sound (like a speech) that I really like is incredible. There is something about sound that is just so comforting and pleasing. And as my friend Hannah said, “Music is the thing that unites the whole world”. The way music can be used to express emotions or convey a specific feeling is incredible and when you share that experience with someone else, there is such a deep connection. I was sooo happy last night to say the least—the music just made me so excited and happy and I could not stop smiling. All of a sudden, everyone surrounding me was my friend and I almost lost track of my body, and I let myself go, and dance and laughed and sang, and I was completely one with the music. It was perfect.

I used to think that I wanted to go to concerts to meet the artist and go crazy, and be able to show off my autograph everywhere. But I had it all wrong….As Jason Mraz said in his blog,

“I’m not the person you want to meet. The music is. And the music is alive in you as much as it is in me. We created it together. Therefore, you already know me. We’ve already hugged and kissed. We grew close for a moment and then said our goodbyes. 
It took my breath away.”

Now that I realize that I have a whole new appreciation for music, especially when it is live. And by letting myself go and submerging myself in the sound I get taken into another world, where all my emotions are so enhanced and perfect. Not only that but I feel one with everything around me. It is such an amazing experience.

You are the music while the music lasts. 

-T.S. Eliot

You Know...

"Love is who we are, don't ever let it leave you" 

I Gotta Feeling...

I've realized that no matter what happens in my life, there is always something to be grateful for. Today especially for becoming a year older, being with my family, my friends, and having the many opportunities that lay before me. I made a promise to myself that everyday I would try to say at least ONE thing that I an thankful for...that way, no matter what, I always feel (even a little) lucky. So thanks to life for keeping me here a year longer and for giving me the opportunity to have experienced and lived through everything I have until this day in my life...
and here's a few other things that I am grateful for:


-I was born 19 years ago today (thanks mom and dad!)

-I got my eye brows done

-I had a delicious breakfast in bed (made by my mom)

-I talked to my grandma and the rest of my family in Colombia

-School was cancelled for the 128973892th day in a row

-I ate delicious food all day
-I have an amazing, funny and supportive boyfriend

-I went to karate and learned some cool moves

-I got to catch snow in my mouth as it was falling down

-My sister and her husband came over for dinner

-I felt young and old and happy and anxious, but completely content.

-I ate Mac&Cheese….with extra cheese :)

-I got a new ringtone for my new phone!

-I got TWO cakes, two sets of candles, and thus, two wishes!

-I also got some delicious chocolate fondue.

-According to superstition, my sister (who is pregnant) will have a girl…we’ll see if we’re right!

-I had all my family and amazing boyfriend around me, smiling and happy

-I got a new bronzer- thank god!

-I will also be seeing the DALAI LAMA in New York in May!!! yes yes yes!!!

-Lastly, I am now one year older and I’m feeling time pass by, which is bad in some ways but amazing for all the new adventures that await me! I can’t wait!

....what are you grateful for?

Love

At one point or another we all experience love. I mean pure, true, about to explode and fly away love. Seeing how Valentine's day is tomorrow I thought I'd dedicate this post to that amazing feeling that can always make you smile, or laugh, or just be completely thankful for your life. I don't mean to be making Valentine's day to be a huge thing, but it is a wonderful day to tell everyone you care about how much they mean to you. And it should not only be about romantic lovers, but it should be about everyone! Family, friends, even strangers....look around- love is everywhere. You can even do something really nice for someone else just to put a smile on their face. So let's not make tomorrow about ourselves, but about everyone else. Let's give out our love and let it be felt...and hopefully that way we can truly say that everyone had a day full of love and gratitude. 
I hope everyone feels a heart full of love, and if you don't look closer because we all have all the love in the world within us. 


Now for all the romantics out there, here is Kahlil Gibran on Love (One of the most amazing things I have ever read in my life)


When love beckons to you, follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep.
And when his wings enfold you yield to him,
Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.
And when he speaks to you believe in him,
Though his voice may shatter your dreams
as the north wind lays waste the garden.

For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.
Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,
So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth.

Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself.
He threshes you to make you naked.
He sifts you to free you from your husks.
He grinds you to whiteness.
He kneads you until you are pliant;
And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God's sacred feast.

All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life's heart.

But if in your fear you would seek only love's peace and love's pleasure,
Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing-floor,
Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.
Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself.
Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;
For love is sufficient unto love.

When you love you should not say, "God is in my heart," but rather, "I am in the heart of God."
And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.

Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself.
But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:
To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.
To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingly and joyfully.
To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;
To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;
To return home at eventide with gratitude;
And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.

Open

I found an old box that I had labeled “Laura’s Memories”. I made it when I was about 10 years old, and in it were many old letters, drawing, notes and an old diary. Needless to say it was a big walk down memory lane.

In the diary, I read pages full of my childhood problems of fighting with my sister, peeing my pants, not getting a new bike, etc. But most importantly I read an entree where I had written that I did not feel like I belonged with my family; That I felt alone and misunderstood. I was so shocked because at such a young age I did not think that I would be able to recognize such emotions or at least write about them in the way that I did.

I have always felt different than the rest of my family. Not that we do not get along, because we do and I love them so much, but many times I feel misunderstood. The thing is that I don’t really even know how to change or to improve the situation. As I saw all my old memories I realized that many things have changed and that our family has grown further and further apart which I really sad. I guess we have just gotten too caught up in our own lives and have become a bit selfish.

But why did I write those things in my diary? I started to wonder if we as humans gain our self worth internally or externally….which is a really complicated question because even though we do need some approval or to feel like we are making someone proud, we still have our internal emotions and values.  I know who I am; I know what I am worth, so how can my own family or anyone judge me?

I guess the way we look at this question is all personal…but in the end we have to live in acceptance with everything around us- love everyone for who they are, and just embrace their uniqueness. We are no one to make judgments on someone else.

And from now on, I will do my best to never judge anyone around me... and I will put more effort into my family relationships because after all they are the people that have known me since I was little and they are the people more likely to stay in my life forever. 

Sledding

I went sledding in the dark last night. It was a big, steep hill and in the dark it almost seemed invisible. Needless to say it took a lot of trust which made the experience twice as fun. The best thing was that when I landed, I would lay there on the snow for a bit and just look at the sky. Compared to all the white around me, the sky seemed even darker, making the stars stand out in an incredible way. I felt like I could see all the way into the next galaxy. And I thought about how many times I ignore the beauty that is around me… including the sky…or the slanted trees due to the heavy snow…or the way snow perfectly coats our surroundings.

Another amazing thing about last night was that when I would get thirsty I would just grab some of the clean snow around me and swallow it. Not only was it refreshing but it definitely calmed my thirst. As I was looking at the sky, I thought about how the snow I was eating came from up there and I thought that was so incredible. That made me think about what I was REALLY putting in my mouth.

So I asked my sister, “what do you think snow tastes like?”

…..”Polluted water” she said.

I thought about that for a second and said, “I think it tastes like…Earth”

I also listened to this song last night, which just tied it all together. Maybe you'll like it. (The video is also good)